i mean, its been almost 10 months.
i shouldnt still feel this way,
especially after what he did, the way he ended it,
like i was nothing to him….
fuck,
i really do still love him.
and i swear to god, i would still take him back in a heartbeat.
i dont know if its harder to live with, or without him.
and im adding him on bbm again.
the amount i actually just want to punch her and him right now is ridiculous.
and its not the her you think it is….
im going to become her best friend.
just so i can tear her down.
watch her fall,
watch her hurt,
im going to make myself her bestfriend,
just so i can bring her down
just so i can destroy her.
What the bloody fucking hell…..
Not like I wanted to talk to you anyway…..
Even though he’s a fucking asshole, and I know he’s never gonna change, he’s the only one who’s been there for me for the last 4 years, always. And its hard that now he’s not….and I don’t know what to do, because now I actually have no one…I have no one who’s always gonna be there for me… And no matter what…I’m always gonna love him, and its gonna fucking hurt, every fucking day for the rest of my life that I lost him….
My mums talking on the phone with my aunt about the stupid fucking grief consellour and I honestly just want to kill someone. I fucking hae that dumb bitch, she can die.
I’ve fucking moved on,
I’m over it.
Everyone else needs to stop talking about it when I’m around, because the only thing I want to do when someone brings her up, or suicide up, or mental illness up, is punch them in the face.
So please,
Just fuck off
Finally watching the criminal minds finale and I’m freaking flipping shit, and shitting bricks.
FUCK GREYS ANATOMY.
Why the fuck would he do something like that?
Why would he tell me he still loves after 3 fucking years?
After I’m finally getting to a point in my life when I don’t need him?
Why the fuck would he do that?
Its just so bad, cuz I still love him so much.
